ICU emotions

It feels impossible to articulate the experience of living in the ICU on life support. We are overwhelmed with emotions of anger and sadness. We are brought to tears on a daily basis. We hold each other close. We hold each other tight. The environment is sterile in all sense of the word. We breath the stale air and contemplate the next moment. Each moment seems to grow in length with the ever-slowing passage of time. We talk about the future. We imagine the best and worst of outcomes. We focus our attention on gratitude. It doesn't change the situation. What does change? What is within our control? There doesn't seem to be a lot of room for movement. We feel trapped. There is only anticipation. We wait for the phone call. There are no guarantees. We only want a chance.